Thursday, December 20, 2012
Well since we've been home the days have been flying by and it seems there are not enough hours in the day to get everything done that needs to be done! I'm trying to spend lots of intentional time with Zoya and Mila and giving lots of extra love and snuggles to refill their love tanks from our 3 weeks away! With Christmas right around the corner I did have to think a little about that as well. I'm working on organizing things on the homefront since I'm leaving Sunday for the pick up trip! I've unpacked, and am about 3/4 of the way through repacking. Tomorrow Mila has a sedated MRI and tomorrow evening the girls have a double sleep study (or sleepless study). We're supposed to get slammed with snow so I'm hoping we can make the 2.5 hour trek since they've told me this sleep study CANNOT BE CANCELLED since they're bringing in extra staff for our family LOL! They called yesterday to ask if we had seen the weather report....I know this sounds like REALLY bad timing, and it is...but it's been scheduled for months. Hopefully we'll make it back into town Saturday morning (they kick us out at 5:30 am) and have time to finish packing and getting the house all ready to leave. Saturday evening we'll celebrate Christmas with Grandpa and Grandma Gigi and then Sunday morning I'll take off with my brother for Part 2: Operation Bust Curlie Girlie OUT! Are you as tired as I am just reading that? Okay, time is precious...off to chip away at this list and love on my girlies!
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
A year ago today, I handed over my tiny little Mila Bean to have her heart repaired. It is one of the hardest, most excruciating things I've ever done. I found myself thinking about her surgery often today and got choked up quite a few times. It seems like a lot longer than a year ago that I handed that little bean over and bawled my eyes out in the bathroom when they walked away with her. I am so thankful the doctors were able to fix her heart! Looking at her now, you'd never know she was so sick. You'd never know she needed heart surgery. Her tiny, thin little scar has faded to a silver-white and you have to look closely to even see it anymore. I didn't share many pictures at the time because I just couldn't stand seeing her like that, let alone show the world. A year later, I'm choosing to share a few of her pictures because they no longer represent fear and sadness. They represent miracles and hope and life-because I can look at them and look her her now and know that The Great Healer healed her little heart! I can look at them and know that we are blessed to share time on this earth with Mila, because I know without a doubt that not all children have the same fortunate outcome. The pictures may be hard for some to look at so view at your own discretion.
Happy First Heart Day, Mila!