A million and one thoughts....

Many people want to know when we are traveling...

We hope to travel for the first trip (yes there are 2 trips) toward the end of February. Zoya's country actually closes to accepting paperwork for December and January, so we have to wait until Feb. 1st to have our paperwork submitted. We will probably have 2-3 weeks notice of when we will have to travel. We will be in the country for 2-3 weeks and then return home without Zoya for about 10-20 days (depending on holidays) to wait. We will take a 2nd trip back to her country after that time for about 10-15 days to finalize things. At the end of that time, we will, God willing, return HOME with Zoya! We are hoping to have her home around March/April if all goes well. The travel part seems so far away and somewhat surreal at this point.

It will be an adventure for sure! I, for one, am nervous about the squatty potties...but the show must go on! Each day Zoya waits in her lonliness without us breaks my heart. So when I think about her, squatty potties hardly matter! This process is definitely way out of the range of our comfort zone. At times its completely mentally exhausting to have these million and one thoughts running through our heads about all the unknowns....about Zoya....about her being all alone....about her health....about all the paperwork....about the travel....about the finances....about whether or not this will all work out. It's scary, uneasy, uncomfortable, unnerving, and difficult! But it is not supposed to be easy! Thinking about Zoya and all the joy she will bring to us makes all those terrible feelings go away, even if just for a moment or two. Sometimes...a lot of times...I have to remind myself to turn all the thoughts off, put my trust in God, and just breathe. After all, my worries don't even begin to compare to what Zoya must go through day after day, being alone, sick, and needing the love and comfort of a family so badly.