Wednesday, February 24, 2010

5 Months!

5 months ago today we committed to our precious Zoya.  We were different people 5 months ago.  Our entire life perspective has changed and I would never want to go back.  In the past 5 months we have learned to trust more, worry less, WAIT a lot, cheer other people on, love eachother better, and open our hearts to others in need.  5 months seems like it has been 5 years...really it has NOT gone by fast at all. 

The biggest lesson for me this far has been that it is okay to ask others for encouragement, support, prayer, help.  Shawn and I are both very independent people who have always taken pride in the fact that we have accomplished so much on our own.  Obviously we realize there were many people who helped us along the way to become the people we are, but prior to this, we would have rather done things on our own...privately...without EVER asking for help from others.  During this journey we have NEEDED help in so many ways.  We have needed friends more than we ever needed friends before.  We have needed financial assistance to make this happen.  We have needed prayer like we've never needed prayer before.  We have reached out to people and the response has been nothing short of amazing.  I always knew I had lots of people who cared, but I never knew just how much they cared.  I have been so touched and astounded by the many people who have helped us on this journey in one way or another.  All of you are part of Zoya's story and we are forever grateful to you for that. 

5 months ago I could have never imagined how I would feel at this very moment.  Having just got our travel date to meet Zoya, so many things are going through my head.  More importantly, so many things are going through my heart.  I don't know yet how to write the words that describe how I am feeling at this very moment.  It is definitely a feeling I've never known before.  I don't think I'm prepared, or ever could be, to meet Zoya.  I pretend I am prepared, but I can only imagine what those first weeks getting to know her will be like.  I keep praying that God will prepare our hearts, and hers for our meeting.  How do you prepare for such a life changing experience? You don't.  You just fly by the seat of your pants, soak up every single second good and bad, and know those first moments will only be the beginning of so many more moments to come. 

7 comments:

  1. You're already such great parents. I can't wait to see what you're like when you've had your chance to get your arms around her. Praying for more and more great things to come.

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  2. I cannot wait for you guys to be official parents but like Kathy said above...you already are such amazing parents. Get ready for the adventure of a lifetime!!!

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  3. Once you have her in your arms for good you will wonder what you did before having her in your life. It is an awesome feeling!

    Can't wait to hear all about your journey as it continues to unfold.

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  4. Thrilled for you and beautiful Zoya. Will be sending prayers and good thoughts your way as you prepare to meet your little girl!

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  5. You're right, you just don't know until that times comes...but imagining it is half the fun! I can't wait for you to hold her in your arms, she is such a little doll.

    Jodi

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  6. your right, nothing can prepare you for what you are about to recieve, just like any expecting parent. You guys will be great parents, and Zoya will be a very lucky little girl. God bless. Kris

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  7. I feel like I have found my twin haha. Everything you right I have said or have felt. Thank you. Thank you so much for letting me know I am not alone. Thank you!

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