Monday, March 15, 2010
We just waited for about 2 hours outside the building we went to this morning. We were told to go back at 4 to get the paperwork we need to go to Zoya's region. The person who needed to sign the form didn't, I don't know why...maybe they weren't there to sign it? So after we got all packed and lugged our bags down about 8 sets of stairs, we lugged them back up and unpacked. Nicolay says this is typical. Apparently we will go tomorrow at 4 and hope it is ready. If not I don't know what I will do. It should be ready though. But then again they said it should have been ready today. It was almost like being a kid and thinking tomorow is Christmas then your parents telling you, I know I told you it was Christmas but it really isn't. I am so bummed out. I know it will happen, but I think between the jet lag, pure exhaustion, being in a completely foreign place, and getting my hopes up for meeting her tomorrow, I'm not having such a good moment right now. Having zero control over the entire situation is hard. If anyone ever tells me that "adoption is the easy way out" (again since I already heard that once), I might hurt them. No, I didn't expect this to be easy. You can't really prepare yourself for how you will feel from one moment to the next. All I know is the peaks and valleys have been a constant in this process. So I'm guessing this isn't the last unexpected obstacle we will face before we get Zoya home either. If all goes according to Plan B, we will meet Zoya on St. Patrick's Day (which they don't celebrate here by the way). I went back and read THIS POST and thought of Zoya as our four leaf clover. So if we do meet her on St. Patrick's Day that would be kind of cool (trying to see the bright side here). Anyways, could use some prayers tonight.